counting down the days,i dont know if i should feel happy or upset. Reason being i dont know why i am supposed to be upset. Im required to bring along swimming goggles which means i might need to get into the water but i cant swim and i think i am worried because of that. Well,otherwise than that,it goes to my haircut. I am kinda troubled over the fact on how i will look BALD,so i guess thats another factor to me feeling stressed.There are other minor minor stuffs troubling me but i just cant figure it out,i mean in less than 48 hours,i will be a "chow recruit" serving national service. Yet i am like trying to convince myself that i will be alright.So well,i wasnt trying to be brave when i told my parents not to come find me in tekong. Its just that i aint close to them and i dont like the feelings of going out with them. Its like years since i last had a proper family,many years back when i last went out with my parents. So i guess i will feel uneasy going out with them.So ya,actually,deep down inside,im afraid,im seriously showing some sense of fear no matter much i try to keep my confidence level there.Hopefully things will turn out fine....