regrets are too late now...for i had paid for my air tickets....seeing my $404 fly like that feels so...HELPLESS....but okay....today,my grandma had gone back to hospital,so shes having the operation tomorrow and yah,hopefully she will come back soon...meanwhile,im home alone..AGAIN =)) , so today...played basketball and i was fired up on the first game.....played with these bunch of china guys....its like my first game ya know and they came to be so physical on me....like i was just standing and waiting for the ball to start,i get pushes from the guys around me.....so i got pissed and i went berserk....LOL......we won the game 11-10,i know its close..but what can i do when my team mates aint defending well.....im referring to THIS ONE GUY...the guy that can jump yet cant defend......its always him making me demoralised,like sure you wanna go ahead and shoot or score...but basketball is not only offence FOR YOUR INFO.....you can shoot,but ALL OF US CAN SHOOT TOO!.....and we aint bad shooters..again...FOR YOUR INFO.....so yah....i started to heat the game up when we were 5-0 down and i scored the first point to start our game....and yah...it went pretty well.....like when i was attempting to do my finger roll...i knew i was high up on air,so i used my left leg and tried kicking one of those guys....and guess what....i only wanted to get some physical damage to him...but sadly....for that guy....i kicked his balls instead....zhun right? LOL.....and the ball scored anyway...so yah....this was one of the games i played physically without losing my temper.....so yah..cheers ^^ , but after this game...its a friends game and its back to friendly mode =p , and yah...dinner at parkway then paid my air tickets and im back home.....so anyway....my slipped disc is giving me severe aches recently and yah...i guess i just gotta bear with it.... =)) and as for relationship.....theres a possibility she will read my nick....bt dont ever think she will unblock/chat with me.....so im like waiting for the impossible....i can only pray that she will give me this chance to at least be her friend.....maybe thats being silly but i think thats what love is.....until MAYBE when i find someone right for me....