its 4.25am right now and apparently...i cant sleep......this is gonna be long so yah....im gonna start off with the trip to hong kong.....so yup,robin and dorin wants me to go to hong kong with them but despite me telling them that i wont have enough money to spare,they said they will lend me and stuffs like that....its getting pretty stressful because i just got my 2 weeks pay and i dont wanna spend it unncecessarily....so yah,flight ticket around $370,they said we could stay at robin's uncle place and i would pay my air tickets and my spendings....but i mean...i worked for my earnings and just because you want to enjoy yourselves and you want me to go with you...im gonna have to spend my hard earned money on that single vacation...? i mean....i worked hard cause i need the money for myself and so...im gonna have to make a decision tomorrow.....to let them be happy yet get myself pathetic by agreeing and buying the tickets straight tomorrow OR im gonna piss them off by saying i dont wanna go so yup...following that....basketball... so....i went to marine parade's cc match yesterday and man....marine parade got knocked hard....losing somewhere 50 points.....its really giving me alot of stress to know that i will be in that team next year.....its like....so what if a player is good or not...cause the team aint good at all....!!! so next year...im either gonna perish with the team and make myself a loser OR im gonna bring the team to the next level......big responsibility...?? not really....i had seeked advice from uncle reno and yah...i will just do what i can to help the team i suppose....so,like i said its 4.34am now as i typed this =p and i need a sleep badly RIGHT THIS MOMENT! im gonna have to go to telok kurau pri to return a cable lock which i took and then to CGH to visit both my granny and grandma.....so,estimated time i wake up is ard 10.30am and im so so gonna be tired tomorrow......considering the fact im gonna play basketball at bedok cc/fengshan cc after visiting my granny and grandma.....and whats worse is im expecting to have to play twice as hard since my friend whose a "Center" is having an operation tomorrow.....so it means more burden on my shoulders but arghh....im just gonna screw it.......as for now....im just gonnna say something from the bottom of my heart.......hell yes i had been looking for someone who suits me....but right this moment....im missing this particular girl.....its been months since i last talked to her......ever since we so called broke off.....she ignored me and stuffs like that....but i tried moving on......i moved on...and it seems like im back to square one now......shes been running in my head this past hour and i really cant sleep and i doubt i can concentrate tomorrow......i know shes not gonna come back to me but im praying she will.....hais.....this is getting into my head so much.....