hmm....went to joo seng today,everyone were late besides daryl.....lol....then played.....had 3 games against the uncles and lost all the games......hmmm....good or bad.....the bad thing is i blamed my teammates which i shouldnt had done so.......good is that i had learnt more about basketball......but ya...i clashed with a so called metal fence earlier.......went on fast break......robin threw the ball too late....and i didnt get the ball and had to go straight and i had to try to grab the fence bt my hand went right through and dang....i hit it....and dam it hurts like fcuk....just like a fractured hand......bt luckily......im fine...though it still hurts now.....then i was playing good basketball yest and today but when i got home today......she came to my mind again and right now...im thinking...IM SCREWED AGAIN!.......funny you think...but ya...its really saddening right now......going mentally unstable.....im like having the urge to wait for her at her house void deck......to just see her without letting her know.....its like i dont care....i just want her....but....im bearing this pain within myself.......and news is that she may like someone else now......trying to make myself happy but....err....alright...im tired now...im gonna go for a run tomorrow.........